Sanitarium

[Dæmon]

Mind/Body

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[Dæmon]

Indifference as Multiplier
Each success increases confidence; each failure decreases it.
The organism's need, in relation to the objective, or the means towards an objective, determines its relationship of caring.
The more it needs the more it cares.
Means is often mistaken as the objective... and so hedonism confuses the sensation for the goal.

Being in the zone:
A state of complete focus upon the objective, where no collateral concerns enter consciousness to decrease the will's focus upon the objective.
Aggregate energies efficiently directed - optimum performance.    
In such a state caring ceases to factor in. It falls out of consciousness, becoming the underlying motivator, and not an inhibiting loss of focus.
Mind is completely focused upon objective.

Each experience increases, or decreases, the mind's ability to focus, as the particular increases or decreases in importance.
More so when objective is a prime need - less so when it is a secondary need.  
As confidence increases the particular objective decreases in importance; it becomes a means towards an underlying end with the particular means losing significance.
Ironic that confidence diminishes the importance of the particular.
Any failure is an exception, compared to past success.
Lack of confidence multiplies the importance of the particular.
Any success is an exception, compared to past failures.

The tipping point is reached after multiple exceptions to past experiences, in relation to the individual psychological stamina and desire for the end, re-balances the organism's self-esteem.

Irony of multiple failures
Mind becomes accustomed to failure, expecting ti with every attempt, and so the particular loses importance, imitating confidence.
Mind shifts objective, and what remains converts to a means towards a different end: for instance for practice/training technique, for validation assessment fo means and the end, for exposing the means as what it is etc.        

Irony of indifference
Not caring for the outcome is confused as confidence.
Individual gains focus by being uncaring about the end, and, therefore, the means towards it.
Attaining it would require a reversal, interpreted as duplicity.
The victor refuses the benefit, the prize, shaming it as undesirable, and easily attained.

Dominance, a product of ease, confused for effort.
Exceptional inheritance, confused as exceptional personal effort.
Failure, a product of dis-ease, confused for a lack of effort.
Unexceptional inheritance confused for unexceptional effort.
Conundrum of genetics.
Inherited ease leads to atrophy.
Cycles repeat.

Popularity confused as uniformity
An objective made popular is distributed uniformly within a population - each member is equally driven towards it.
All failure to do so, is blamed on genetic inheritance, or lack of effort.
Any desire below the average is accused of hypocrisy; all desire above the average is accused of obsession.
Personal judgment of other, is never evaluated.
Error of confusing sympathy for empathy, and empathy for sympathy.

Objectives desirability is established as a uniform value - a standard.
All costs/benefits are determined in relation to this universal standard.
Failure to display the appropriate level of desire is blamed on an individual failure.

The mean's self-assessment, as a factor - if applicable    
When the means to an end is, itself, a conscious being, with its own psychology, founded on its own experiences - cost/benefit analysis - it becomes the unknown factor.
Level of self-knowledge and self-esteem, in the means to an end, acts as an additional multiplier - the unforeseen factor.
Exploiting low self-esteem in the means, increases the possibility of success in the attainment of the end - a compensating factor for lack of confidence.
Unforeseen factors are family, friends, protecting the means from its own low self-esteem; random events, and competitors, also evaluating the means as exploitable.

High self-esteem as a determining factor
Time gradually erodes confidence.
High self-esteem slowly deteriorates, in proportion to the desire for the end.

As usual the rule about exposing vulnerability applies.
Hiding weakness increases the other's appreciation of confidence - ascribed to experiences and/or on past successes.
The evaluating consciousness uses self as the standard for evaluating other.
The other falling below the judging mind's self-assessment, its own self-esteem, determines the level of acceptable weakness in the means to an end.

If the conscious other is the end itself, and no merely a means toward it, the same applies.

Paradox of Subjectivity  
Danger of confusing empathy for sympathy.
The judging mind will refuse responsibility for a wrong assessment.
The other will have failed to meet with its judgments.
What discrepancy between theory and performance is recognized will be blamed on the other's hypocrisy, or the other's failings.
Esteem of other decreases.
Judging mind is absolved of the possibility of weakness - self-esteem is preserved and increased.                        

[Dæmon]

Pity is the final refuge of the degraded coward.
He tries to evoke it, as a magical shield, or calls upon it as a magical weapon to cut to pieces.
Pity is the Judeo-Christian's last refuge.

Self-pity is his passion.

[Dæmon]

Respect – fear/anxiety of other withholding something precious:
Withhold future, by denying life.
Withholding possibilities, by controlling access to means.
Withholding emotion/sensation, denying need’s gratification; denying self (mind/body) as means for venting energies such as libido.
Withholding data/knowledge, understanding (interpretation of data, by withholding the uncovering of patterns), and guidance (offering a solution, a direction, an objective to focus Will).
Withholding reciprocal respect, allowing a greater sharing/expressing of personal anxieties/fears, on the basis of shared vulnerability – parity in need.

Respect slowly diminishes in proportion to the decline in codependence, and when need declines along with the anxiety/fear associated with satisfying it.
Cost/Benefit evaluations, by both sides of the relationship, determining the tension, or the slave/master dynamics of respect/resentment.
MANifesto: History – Identity – Structure of Self – Master/Slave
In sexual/reproductive relationships tension may be experienced as eroticism.
Respect (anxiety/fear) and resentment, of the dependent on the desired, produces sexual passion.
A fine balance particular to the participants and how they assess their own cost/benefit possibilities, founded on the particular levels of need/suffering, establishes the respect/resentment dynamic.
If the balance is disturbed, respect and resentment adjust, requiring a new cost/benefit assessment – not necessarily occurring on a conscious level.  
In the case where what is potentially gained decreases below a certain level that would justify potential costs, keeping resentment manageable, or if what is gained is completely lost, and/or withheld entirely, then resentment creates a rift, with anxiety/fear no longer a counterbalancing factor. A rift not to be forgotten in future cost/benefit evaluations, where consistency/reliability of a benefit is part of the judgment.
It often happens that one or both parties in a codependency relationship, now permanently damaged or dissolved, may look back on the period of balanced tensions of respect/resentment with a degree of fondness.
Memory is a cleansing process, retaining, in code, what the brain finds amicable to the mind/body’s well-being, or, at least, not threatening. The immediacy of the (inter)actions lost in time leaves in the mind only the aspects of the event it has understood, or appreciated positively. To put it another way, the mind retains the benefits, while minimizing the costs paid, as a way of preserving high self-esteem and an unblemished ego.
In cases where a relationship, though unbalanced, is forced to persist, the change of respect/resentment is transferred to another need, altering cost/benefit and respect/resentment levels accordingly, but retaining the tension in a new form – a loss of eroticism when the relationship is a sexual/reproductive one.

Exposing self to other may cause an adjustment of cost/benefit, and therefore effect the respect/resentment dynamic.
Intimacy diminishes mystery, which is the basis of anxiety/fear.
Depending on the nature of the reciprocity, time may decrease the quantity and/or the quality of the benefit to one, or both, parties.
This will cause a decline in tension maintaining the relationship in a continuous state of stress, or a respect/resentment equilibrium – in some cases this may invert the master/slave dynamic forcing both sides into different roles within the relationship.                  

[Dæmon]

Organic anatomy is the order patterns take, within a particular hierarchy, exposing a method, a congruence of processes, assimilating energies lost, due to temporal attrition (constant interactivity), and directing them; distributing them back within the organism.
Attrition is continuous, and the essence of existence: dynamic (inter)activity.
Patterns conflict internally with patterns participating in the unity, and externally with patterns and non-patterned energies.
Successful congruities can collect patterned energies, replenishing those lost.
Excess can then be directed towards expanding the organism’s plane of possibilities: delineated by a porous (incomplete) shell/membrane/skeleton, separating time/space possibilities, and movements within it, into internal/external.
The internal represents time/space claimed by the organism: the imposition of its order(ing).
Within this claimed time/space the organism builds its particular organization, adapting to internal disharmony, and external contradicting energies.
If its efforts are effective, assimilating more energies than it requires to compensate for those lost, what is left-over is directed towards growth.
Efficiency is the product of internal harmonization; the balancing of repulsive forces, in relation to attractive forces, without achieving perfect/absolute harmony.
Organism divides – replicating itself (mitosis) – when external contradicting energies stress its incomplete external boundary – putting too much pressure/stress upon the organism, to advance in expansion/growth.
Mitosis creates a “clone”, a near, perfect copy. External influences prevent a perfect copy, resulting in the primal form of mutation leading to the complexities of evolution.
Evolved adaptation of this process results in reproduction using the compromise (weakness) to sacrifice part of self in a cooperative union with another of one’s own kind.
Excess energies directed towards self-preservation, leading to mitosis, are alter held in waiting, when the fight/flight mechanism evolves.
Fight/Flight necessitates a nervous system where these excess energies are stored as stress, and what later evolves as libido, the reproductive funneling of these excess energies – creativity is an offshoot of this procreative method.
Stress is a form of energy which can be used to direct the organism towards an objective promising satiation of needs.
Need being the experience of the loss of energies, due to attrition – suffering being an extreme form of it, when the losses begin deconstructing the order already constructed. A more sophisticated nervous system develops the ability to interpret these losses as a conscious sensation.

The spasms experienced during orgasm and laughter, are symptoms of these excess energies, kept in reserve, being released.
The sensation is one of destressing, or relief – an agreeable sensation the organism may become addicted to.
With orgasm excess energies are released using other as stimulation; with laughter the other becomes the conduit through which we experience need/suffering objectively, or vicariously – pleasure of empathy detached from sympathy.    

[Dæmon]

Notice: sexual aberration is only acknowledged when it directly hurts another human, or, another organism.
Its subjective acceptance finds a common ground in the selfish, and the most immediate.
The "negative" consequences must be subjectively accepted and appreciated by the parties involved (consent), and if these are not then they no longer apply, unless some institutionally sanctioned “expert" usurps the participation judgment on the matter.
Now the behaviour acquires a social engineering aspect.  
There is no attempt to understand the sexual dysfunction objectively, detached from personal feelings and interests.
What affects personal interest the quickest is environment, which is now society.
Altering social attitudes towards homosexuality, in comparison to paedophilia, or bestiality, or necrophilia shows a distinct dependence of mind on others in the immediate environment.
How such behaviour will impact future generations, beyond the generations that immediately follow, is never part of the debate.
To put it another way, the cost/benefit is limited to what does not exceed the lifespan of a human, and this means the human involved in the debate, or dialogue.

[Dæmon]

As an instinctive agency of nature, females adopt and adapt to power, making themselves useful to it – means to an end.
For this reason females are easy to adapt, and adjust to whatever circumstances, challenged, only, to judge between "real power" and pretense.
To men judged negatively and denied access to the genetic/memetic pool – denied destiny – will despise the agency personifying this rejection.
To men given access, this acknowledgment of their worth will make them lovers of the representation of this judgment.
Misogyny and Romanticism can now be placed within the context of existence, as manifestation of past/nature, and female as the intuitive/instinctive filtering agency.
Accounting for the level of awareness in both males and females, equivalent to that of an animal who simply follows a genetic programming, driven by an impulse, with satisfaction as its only recognizable motive, we may adjust our previous analysis to include hedonism, and how for heterosexual males/females this other becomes no more than a means towards gratification – the level of psychological/physical gratification determining the evaluation of other.
Modern outlets, such as pornography and prostitution, denying males the acknowledgment, the feminine appreciation of their genetic evaluation - gratification lacking the psychological component, akin to the absence of motherly love.
A female with below average genetic appeal would empathize with an inferior male's plight, because for any female of near average sexual appeal finding genetic appreciation by males is not as difficult – so easy, in fact, that it cannot be compared.
A female would have to be extremely deficient to experience the same level of dejection an average, and even slightly above average, male does.
In this case lowering her standards (widening her filtering parameters) will garner the appreciation from these lower standard males.
At this point the relationship is more emphatic/sympathetic, or motherly – the male acknowledges and appreciates the female as the only one that offers him psychological gratification, along with the physical, even if for the female this is due to her own limited options, and subsequent readiness to settle.
Male/Female act, for one another, as a compromise offering a second chance: their relationship based on idealistic standards, and a desire to alter the standards of evaluating genes and memes.
For females living in Nihilistic Modern environments, the limitation is socially enforced, and accepted as a necessary compromise, in relation to the benefits of existing within a protective environment that gives females additional power in the form of "rights" over her body and the children she produces.
An example would be social rules punishing the only male response to female sexual power, concerning violence, particularly that dealing with a female's sexual power, called rape, criminalizing a natural choice.
A modern female approves of this inflation of her power, and accepts the costs of having to restrict her sexual choices, and settle for lower end males, relative to her social status.
Hypergamy is how she deals with her social status, ensuring that her progeny will have more options, and will be forced to make less compromises.
Her infidelity option is always in play.
Breaking of a memetic rule, is a serious breach of social etiquette, but in agreement with her genetic dispositions: Modern socials punishment for such indiscretions are negligible, although there is a social stigma cost to it – quickly being diminished in modern western Nihilistic environments where "individuality" and "gratification" are in high regard, and loyalty and duty are of lesser value.

[Dæmon]

Crime or labeling a behaviours as such, is how a meme denies certain genetic points from the individual - it is a stripping away of its power.  

When rape is criminalized, for example, the male reaction to female sexual power is denied him.
The female no longer seeks protection in another male, but in the institution, which has become, for her, an abstraction of maleness in all ways but one: copulation.
Biological masculinity reduced down to penis, offering pleasure, and/or reproduction.
Male has become a service provided to female, and is in no other way relevant having been replaced by institution, or the idea(l) of masculinity.  

[Dæmon]

Empathy is his only source of connection to others. He feels nothing inside when he lives through the other’s emotional reactions to circumstances.
An empathic sponge, if squeezed he pours forth what he’s absorbed from others, either in the immediate, or from what he has stored in his mind from previous encounters. He, quickly, “reads” other, placing him/her in a psychological category he can then understand through the multiple variances of the type he has encountered, adjusting himself, accordingly, and slowly: each word, each action, an exploration of other’s reactions, helping him fine-tune his performance.  
Without emotional feedback he has nothing to reflect, no feelings on the matter at hand; using his own personae, nothing to go by to get into the other’s mind, and adopt whatever he finds there as his own.
Although some have caught glimpses of his true identity none have ever seen the entire him – he evades detection when he adjusts himself to the other’s needs, expectations.
He is often mistaken for an emotional man, a passionate one, because the passions are how he ingratiates himself to others, how he digs into their psyche circumventing their defences – when emotions are absent he attempts to trigger them.
He is confused for a friend when he is simply reflecting back to the individual his/her own personae.
People find him charming, nice, and easy-going because they are never really with him, he is never present, but always with themselves through him.
He functions best one-on-one; his talent being useless in crowds where different emotions, coming from multiple directions, vie for his attentions, forcing him to fall back on humour so as to not be discovered as what he is – releasing stress through comedy deals with the empathic-noise in his mind, when among a crowd of more than two. He hides in cynicism, converting their stress into revealing releases of energy, and he bathes in it – letting his own flow, like tears in the rain.

[Dæmon]

Benjamin dives deeper into the situation... into the abyss of time/space.
Where others prefer to remain where it suits them, in the “negative”, or, most likely, in the “positive”, he digs further, never content to remain there; goes further, sometimes going “too far” for other people’s tastes.
He is never “in the moment”, but outside of it, underneath it, over it – he’s already escaped the theoretical point in space/time when others stop to “smell the roses”.
Others confuse him as a superficial individual, unable to fully comprehend, to understand, to appreciate, because he’s dissected and gone further, still.  
In a world populated by subjectivists preferring to stay-put in the first “positive” sensation a situation produces, he is mistaken as a cynic, a pessimist, because none of them know he does the same with the less popular, nihilists, stopping at the first sensation of “negativity” wanting to stay there and go no further.
He finds positives in every negative, and negatives in every positive.
Benjamin never settles for the sensation he subjectively prefers, but sees further, wishes to dig deeper, and for this reason he is out-of-tune with all others on both sides of the psychological spectrum.
Cynics consider him overly optimistic, almost naïve, and romantics overly cynical, and pessimistic – the latter being more numerous in these days of Modernity, and comforting subjectivity, he is most often confused for a pessimistic killjoy unable to appreciate the “good”. On the other side, the rarer one, he is mistaken for a romantic idealist, unable to appreciate life’s tragedy, its “bad” and/or “evil” nature.
He is always out-of-tune with other, no matter his/her psychological disposition.
Finding the comedic, the pleasing, in every tragic situation, just as easily as he finds the tragic, the fake, in every, seemingly, pleasing circumstance.
He is never fully “there”, present in the moment, whatever it may be; never there where others choose to bask, not going further.
He is always digging into time/space, un-covering, re-vealing.
In the past, when he was still inexperienced, this made him antipathetic to his peers. Learning to keep things hidden, to not speak his mind has remedied this unnecessary consequence of his “condition”.
Intimacy is problematic when there is more to what is immediately evident, and readily exposed. Simpler minds have no problem sharing their superficiality, because there is nothing more to them, beyond what they are aware of: their openness, honesty, is not a result of courage, but of simplicity, and ignorance.
They are as shallow as they seem to be, not requiring pretence. They are, like simpler creatures, forever in the moment. There is nothing more to them, which they can fathom, and so there is no conscious repression, no willful pretence. They are forever trapped in the moment, the desirable negative/positive of the circumstance, and unlike Benjamin they do not and cannot dig deeper, go further than the “here/now”.
Their subjective reaction to otherness is their entire reality.
They are aware of nothing beyond it, or if they sense something, they recoil, preferring to remain there, in the preferred positive/negative moment – temporal handicaps.

[Dæmon]

The "benefit" of the subjective delusion is found in its ability to dismiss all perspectives concerning the objective, on the grounds of its own delusion.
The Modern does not need to comprehend the other to attack him personally, especially when the other is proposing a view that discredits Modern obsession with subjectivity.
Ad hom is both a weapon and a shield for them.
Parity is ensured when inferior minds are not required to display comprehension of that which they hen dismiss and assault.  
In regards to their own adopted, or not, perspective, the same applies.
No understanding needs to be displayed but only implied, using innuendo.
the modern simply retreats to his idea(l) defensive position that all is equally possible when no absolute is possible, or can be known, by all humans, even while claiming that an absolute does exist but is incomprehensible, by all, and can be understood in any way possible.

Common among the Nihilists, other than declarative statements with no supporting arguments or evidence, is the personal attack on the others psychology and his hypothetical motives.
Even in this Nihilists express the common, to them, inversions.
Instead of attacking the individual after the perspective has been thoroughly explored, he attacks the individuals hoping that by slandering the source the perceptive is also dealt with.

This is the consequence of his deepest faith: all is perceptive and there is no objective standard to evaluate perspectives, which in laymen's terms means that all perspectives are equal when no absolute exists (pure Nihilism), and/or all is equal when the absolute exists but is for all equally incomprehensible (duplicitous, positive, Nihilism).  
In the former all can be cynically dismissed and reduced to a error, and in the latter the only acceptable standard is human - how it is accepted by the majority based on emotional, hedonistic, self-serving criteria.    

[Dæmon]

A regression is underway, back to the bicameral mind.
Accompanying it is an almost fanatical obsession with ancient wisdom, delivered through the words of priests speaking on its behalf.
Schizophrenia, and compartmentalization can be placed within its contexts, along with the Modern obsession with subjective spirituality.
The loss of the individual's connection to past/nature, promoted by Modern memes, has the individual grasping for a substitute, in other, as State, as God, as Humanity, as Self becoming the conduit attaching him, psychically, deeper meanings, offering purposes and new identities.

The old shamanic voices of god(s) have been replaced by profound sensation, emotions, and new voices speaking on behalf of the collective unconscious.
Fragmentation reaches its apex when the individual implodes into a singularity, its every whim, disposition, anxiety, forming a new private universe no one can share in, or disrupt.
The outside world intrudes with sensations, voices, feelings, the mind interprets as an awakening to profound truths.      

[Dæmon]

In the second millennium B.C., we stopped hearing the voices of the gods. In the first millennium B.C., those of us who still heard voices, our oracles and prophets, they too died away.
In the first millennium A.D., it is their sayings and hearings preserved in sacred texts through which we obeyed our lost divinities. And in the second millennium A.D., these writings lose their authority…
And here at the end of the second millennium and about enter the third, we are surrounded with this problem. [The Origin of Consciousness in the Breakdown of the Bicameral Mind]

Tracing back our modern schizophrenia.

Arieti distinguishes between a ‘paleologic’ form of thinking, and the thinking that comes from ‘Aristotelian logic’ that rules Western man.
Since the first edition of his book Arieti points out that the paleologic thinking, which modern man only experiences in dreams, was omnipresent in prehistoric cultures. In order to avoid a runaway anxiety that drives the victim into panic, the patient diagnosed as schizophrenic abandons the Aristotelian norms of intuitive logic and lapses into the sort of thinking of our most primitive ancestors. Like John Modrow, Arieti acknowledges the value of the work of Harry Sullivan about the panic the child experiences as a result of an all-out emotional assault from both parents.
The paleologic regression can be adapted years after the abuse occurred, even when the child has become economically independent.
The withdrawal from reality, or psychotic breakdown, is the last and most desperate attempt of the unconscious to maintain the ego in a state of internal cohesion.  
A dramatic regressive metamorphosis arises when, one after another, the defenses that the victim had been using do not work anymore. To a greater or lesser degree all human beings function with a dose of neurosis, but in the psychotic outbreak, when neurotic defenses collapse, the subject falls into even more archaic forms of defense: mechanisms which had been overcome millennia ago, a regression to the bicameral mind. [Day of Wrath]

A fascinating hypothesis attributing modern nihilism to childhood abuse.
Abuse taking the form of coddling, akin to the old practice of “swaddling”, wrapping the child so tightly as to prevent its free movement.
In present terms the protective “wrappings” inhibiting thinking are verbal, and the role of abusive parent is played by the institutions which impose these constraining mental rules.
Subsequently the unwrapping of the body compensates for the “swaddling” of the brain: the body is freed from past/nature, as the mind is imprisoned within Nihilistic boundaries.
Physical pleasure converts stress into relief.  
According to this theory the child wanting to expand outwards, and facing abusive parents, blames itself, absolving the parents, in this case the institutions, of all responsibility. The child grows up to feel sinful, ashamed, of itself.
The schism between subjective and objective helps it compartmentalize, protecting itself from any harmful realizations.
Christian psychosis is a good example of it: an abusive deity, converting his creations into groveling self-haters.
“Relapsing” to primitive thinking reverts the Modern to an ancient form of “magical thinking”.
Words becomes incantations to repress self and to refuse reality.            

Arieti’s book contains chapters about his clinical experiences with patients.  
In the case of two brothers, Arieti describes how one of them suffered a pre-psychotic panic as a result of the abuse at home and observes that, once in a florid state of psychosis, ‘The paleologician confuses the physical world with the psychological one.
Instead of finding a physical explanation for an event, he looks for a personal motivation or an intention as the cause of an event.”  
Just as the primitive man, in a definitive breakdown of the Aristotelian superstructure, for the disturbed individual the world turns itself animist; each external event having a profound meaning. There are no coincidences for those who inhabit the world of magical thinking.
Both the primitive animist and the modern schizophrenic live in distinct dimensions compared to the rational man. The conceptualization of external happenings as impersonal physical forces requires a much more advanced level of cognition than seeing them as personal agents. Arieti wrote:

If the Greeks are afflicted by epidemics, it is because Phoebus wants to punish Agamemnon. Paranoiacs and paranoids interpret almost everything as manifesting a psychological intention or meaning. In many cases practically everything that occurs is interpreted as willed by the persecutors of the patient.

…Nevertheless, Arieti disagrees with the theoretical psychiatrists who see no similarities between schizophrenic and non-schizophrenic.  
He believes that such points of view ‘are fundamentally wrong,’ and, speaking of non-Western cultures and even of the times of CroMagnon man, he writes:

Often the culture itself imposes paleologic conceptions and habits on the individual, even though the individual is capable of high forms of thinking. The more abundant is the paleologic thinking in a culture, the more difficult it is for the culture to get rid of it.

This last phrase reminds me how presently Western culture imposes relativist conceptions on the individual, even though the typical Westerner is potentially capable of discriminating among inferior cultures: a higher form of thinking.  
Arieti also raises the question of why civilization originated only ten thousand years ago. Like Jaynes, he believes that the incredibly long gestation of civilization had to do with the persistence of paleologic thought, and he adds that presently the paleologic defense mechanisms underlie the human psyche and can return in extreme conditions. [Day of Wrath]

Assaulted by reality, through a speaker, an agent, the Modern returns to his childhood abuse. The one exposing him to such “negative” memories becomes a representation of the abusive parent, or parental figure, now absolved of responsibility so as to sanctify it, or demonized, to sanctify self.

[Dæmon]

The “nice guy” is the male that has lost his mystique, the intimidating unknown factor, and posits no threat to the female.
There is no respect, in the erotic sense, often having been transformed into the respect of friendship, based on the anxiety of dependence, increasing in proportion to their habitual presence, and the fear of its loss.
Erotic anxiety, part of sexual tension, involves deeper anxieties, connected to a primitive period where a larger male was a real threat, and the penetration that would usually follow as part of heterosexual copulation, was a very real imposition into the female’s physical, and subsequently, her mental/psychological space – her sense of self (ego).
The absence of a real physical and mental threat changes the dynamics, from erotic, based on the mind-numbing hormonal effects of lust, to a more subdued, bonding, based on the requirements of child rearing and, alter, social attachments, beginning with primal imprinting.
Familiarization erodes erotic stress, reducing primal sexual tensions. Relationships become ones of interdependence, the survival instinct, demanding less potent hormonal effects, known as love (agape), increasing tolerance and accentuating and cultivating similarities to increase attraction, and reduce repulsion.
A male knows that when a female calls him a “nice guy” it usually means she feels no sexual attraction, but also wishes to nurture a feeling of familiarity, sameness, and a codependency of comfort, trust, and mutually supportive behaviours.
All exceptions to the rule should be considered in relation to the function and the physical/mental mechanics of copulation, involving primal parts of the brain, and areas already evolved before there was a species we could call homo sapient, and before social instincts were necessary as part of a particular survival strategy.
Copulation, in a post-social homo sapient, is still possible for a “nice guy”, but it does not greatly involve the erotic parts of the brain, being more a product of higher brain reasoning, cognizant of social hierarchies, future possibilities, and pragmatic factors, converting the erotic into agape.
In this simple mechanism we can find the source of beta-male/omega-male psychology, and female sexual cunning, creating a mutually beneficial exploitative and manipulative attachment.
Feminization is illuminated when we place the institution in the vacated, and now illegal, role of “alpha-male”.
With all biological males forced into beta-to-omega sexual status, the Modern “bad boy” is a watered-down version of the “danger” element: a less physically threatening, and mentally threatening (psychological abuse also banned) version of the coveted promiscuous “stud”, remaining mysterious if only because of his ability to evade imprisonment and social indoctrination into beta behaviours.
This is what is termed “rebelliousness”.
Such a male’s indifference contrasts to that of the average male’s desperation, expressed in a willingness to swallow pride, and reduce himself to a level no other competing male is able to, so as to win over the female. It is a competition of self-sacrifice, displaying the ends a male is able to go to protect and to provide for the female, and any potential offspring.
Something the bad boy’s indifference is repulsed by – his being one founded no multiplicity of options, rather than the nice guy’s lack of options.        
The nice guy’s obsessiveness, and his monogamous focus can be placed within this context, as can the modern liberal male’s passion for feminism.
Having masculine behavioural options regulated, allows only a few rational choices to the modern male, such as implying potentials, using status symbols, or by cultivating the body to enhance genetic markers, resulting in a competition of hyperbole, and pretences, often attaining the level of the absurd. The performances can be persuasive to the average gullible female, with more ingenuous tactics being more effective on the higher end females.
Modern “alphas” are really “betas” representing, best they can, the only true alpha-male entity: State, Church, or any institutional authority. The alpha transformed into a noetic abstraction, an ideal, without having to be real.
When power is represented by anyone, the rise of homosexuality, as a viable alternative, is inevitable, particularly amongst females, instinctively attracted to power.
Bad boys are identified as those in jail, attracting an entirely different type of female, or those clever enough to imply their masculine threat, or represent its institutional source convincingly, and within conventional boundaries.
In reality all modern males are stand-ins – beta males offering themselves as social allies, and supporting females in their social status competitions, or they are delta/omega males making themselves available to any female leftovers, desperate for a male, willing to settle, from among the excluded males, what her ego permits., or those males able to accept female secret promiscuity, forced upon her (he has no options) so as to preserve other female’s domains (monogamy, though a paternalistic invention remains viable) and the system that provides, for them, and protects them (human rights).
This is now changing. The only limit being the male’s ability to pay alimony, severely restricting male promiscuity (eradicating the bad boy, or forcing him to adapt), while still supporting (rewarding) female promiscuity, breeding the next generation of socially engineered Moderns.
What remains of traditional thinking will quickly fall into the expanding pit of necessity – necessity being the mother of invention.
Once anxiety and respect are reduced to a minimum, alternate options are made available; possibilities arranged by institutions.

[Dæmon]

Those who speak honestly, once too often, with no sign of remorse, are suspected of bad intentions, or stupidity.
Those who speak lies, once too often, with no sign of doubt or shame, are suspected of cleverness.

[Dæmon]

Into the 'heart of darkness' we enter, on a mission to kill the devil, to slaughter the goat, to rid ourselves of the ....

...and when we return what character will we be embodying, what 'civilized' form will we adopt and perform?

Repress the beast within, cloth it, adorn it with sacred symbols, train it to hide, behaving according to rules, and it grows into freakish proportions - one mutation combining with another, morphing into a ghoulish by-product.
Christian denial of human sexuality creates sexual deviancy; reject natural culling and you start brewing a genetic toxic soup out of which all forms of monstrosities emerge as genetic latency, triggered into existence.      

[Dæmon]

A man obsessed with the idea of cleansing himself of all immoral tendencies, uses morality, as it has been presented to him, as a reflective surface - the community deciding his community value.
After he recovers from the shock that he is not truly free, he sees himself through their eyes, as a monstrosity, and begins cutting away bits and pieces of himself, using scalpel or pen, reshaping his external image, his social caricature, sending his personality into the jungles of his unexplored psyche, the Jungian Self, to find itself, or to remain lost, never to return to the surface, to consciousness.
The expelled remains his shadow, for life, casting a gloom over his every illuminating, brilliant, charming performance; a constant reminder that he is not honest, not fully revealed.

As with all extreme examples of physical intervention, like feet binding, circumcision, or cosmetic surgery, forgetting the lesser interventions, like make-up, wardrobe, education, and by "less" I mean those less obvious, less bloody, less immediately physically apparent, what is being reformed is a past; the inherited rehabilitated, adapted to the present.
We adjust our walk, our look, our attitude, to these interventions, forgetting how we were, or never knowing who we were, if the intervention occurs early enough in our life.
What was intervened upon has not been altered.
It may have been diverted, repressed, prevented from fully developing, sublimated into a variety of venting expressions, hidden, and forgotten, but it has not been erased.    

[Dæmon]

Morality externalizes selfishness, in moral behaviour; deifies it by placing it upon a mental pedestal – romanticizes it, makes it invulnerable to individual challenges.
Its encoding, named ethics, culminated in the Ten Commandments, but, in truth, it had already started when philosophers rationalized human behaviour, converting them into linguistic code: sexual and social behaviour necessary to preserve the individual within a stable group.
It’s “universality” means that it applies to all individuals, within the group, equally, if and when the individual remains loyal to them – in religious terms this became part of faith, and the submission to the absolute other, the abstract Self of “God”, later to be reduced to the abstraction of “humanity”.
Terms of inclusion being the ability to comprehend and to obey the rules – ability to understand symbols, in a rudimentary level, and to control self, according to their evocations.
The individual who remains true to the communal behavioural rules, particularly those governing sexual relationships, is to be considered “human”, or humane, and treated as such; those that reject the rules are to be called “evil monsters”, inhuman – the rules of humanity would eventually label them “ill”, blaming social environments for this divergence from the communal norms.
Objectifying morality went hand-in-hand with the externalization of the idea(l) self, as singular deity, corresponding to the development of the mental ability to project thought/ideas/concepts, as abstractions/noumena, , using imagination.
The rigid mind of God was later adapted to a fluid environment, when it became humanity, or the rule of the many. At this stage the commandments, or God’s laws, escaped obsolescence, when God spoke through the many, and/or the many are God (meek shall inherit the earth, meaning the weak shall hold dominion upon humanity dominating earth).
Morality, and ethics became fluid, in a technologically advancing world of humanity (reality and world still unquestioningly implied in the concept), constantly intervening upon natural processes.
The majority decided what ought to be considered “moral” (thuo shall…) at any given period in time, and in any given space. The problem became one of convincing as many as possible to ascribe to this method, remaking god as the singular being, expressed through multiplicity – which majority would impose its humaneness upon all others, still inhuman.
Democracy as God.
Subjectivity of judgments contracting the objectivity of the fluid moral compass, adjusting to the dual poles (negative/positive – good/evil) of Nihilism.
In this way the individual can still claim to be loyal to subjectivity, for all (all judgments created equal, except those challenging this “truth”), while still implying an objectivity that rules all, and excludes those who threaten its internal codependences (hierarchies).
Humanity rethought into a Becoming, a Superorganism, only including cells that feed into its processes.
The external to its internalized ordering, is to be ignored, or only dealt with if it possess a threat to the whole – called “evil” or “bad”, according to the shared ethos.
Ethos becomes a method of assimilation/indoctrination, and identification.
What cannot be rehabilitated, retrained, is expelled, quarantined, ostracized.
The effect is one of externalized divergence, and internalized standardization: God as the esoteric private Self, the singular One, unifying all multiplicity of apparent, but not actual, multiplicity, under the symbol “Human”.
Personality, the private self, consumed within the communal Self, and expressed as public character.
We are all one, we are all human, meaning we all share the one personae, governed by the same laws of behavior, the same idea(l) = God.
Human as the absent noetic God made present as phenomenal multiplicity.
Ethics, in modern times, has become a new method of rewriting and republishing Abrahamic scripture, Biblical text – updating the old outdated metaphors, and making then insidious to literate generations with access to data (knowledge).

The original selfishness of moral behaviour, making heterosexual reproduction and social cooperation possible, was abstraction, translated into symbol/code, and then externalized as an idea(l) Self, through which individual ego can find pride through self-immolation.
Through this externalized idea(l) every individual could project the negative, or the positive, in self, to either purify self, or to shame it, offering it as sacrifice to gain eternity/expansion.
Nihilistic dualism, its binary code, serving both psychological dispositions as a way towards uniformity in one/nil.

[Dæmon]

What have these walls offered us, but the possibility to stand, or sit, at a distance, and laugh at a world we secretly find tragic, and one we would be crying in outside these manmade regulated premises.
Patients are urged to laugh, at themselves, as an expression of good faith, before they turn their mockery on others.
Cynicism is another way of affirming the delusion that all is subjectively the same, a one; parity pretending to be other than.
Medication is supposed to break down the internal psychic walls, tearing apart mental skins, to achieve this en-lightenement of self-responsibility, or the responsibility for one's own subjective interpretations.
There's always an excuse, a syndrome, a trauma preventing "healing".

Relief is found when an inmate dis-covers the flaw in humanity, that makes all the same.
he is encouraged to mock himself and his previous seriousness, embracing a newfound ridiculousness, as a shared, unifying, trait, as "sin" once was.
Patience for the patient who has yet to break down those mental "walls", discovering himself part of external whole, with necessary boundaries, mortar and steel forming designated avenues towards windows and doors.
All "happily" shuffle along these institutional corridors, protected enough to enjoy thinking of their next meal, the next bath time, the glorious rite of taking one's pills with a smile.

If someone chooses to not swallow he suffers the severity of taking things too seriously; planning a breakout, shattering tables and community gadgets, breaking windows and much needed doors.
The community is disturbed by the screaming, and the "crazy talk", urging the misbehaving one to take his medication and calm down; glad if he returned to well-adjusted health, and enjoy what the world, within the walls, has to offer, and if a taste of the outside, the wild, is needed, then there are windows and doors, and plenty of books in the library, opening in and out for short invigorating excursions.

Why all the yelling and screaming?
Why all the fuss?

[Dæmon]

Speaking of any order, one speaks of pattern manifested as appearance, ready to be un-covered and interpreted by consciousness, where the past is present.
Past can be ignored, dismissed, and forgotten but this does not prevent it from appearing as the sum of all past (inter)activity presenting itself continuously, whether it be perceived, or not.

A prerequisite understanding before accepting the human condition.
Homo sapient is the species defined by its social codependency.
Large brain, maturing externally, requires a social womb to complete the process. The defining organ's energy requirements necessitating cooperation, and role allocations - specialization, increasing codependency.
The evolution of semiotics was the inevitable externalization of these relationships - adapting grooming to the requirements of larger group dynamics, over larger expanses of space/time.
Symbols are the conversion of biological neural pulses into forms using light and atmosphere as the conductive mediator - they are the memetic boundaries of an emergent SuperOranism, with each "individual" as its specialized cell.

As with organisms the relationship of organism to world is what defines the particular - no two superorganisms created equal.
The nihilistic idea(l) of "all men are created equal", a constituent rule of internal harmonizing: divergence of specialized roles finding parity within the larger unity.
all roles are codependent, and necessary, so all cells within the body are equal within the framework of the organism.

Any philosophy concerning this emergent super-organism, ought to take the position of excluded voyeur - detaching form the unity which for its participants is defined as "world", with deep biological connection to an inherited past, producing a disposition, a presence, a particular psychology that cannot easily extricate itself from its codependency.
All alien to the superorganism's hierarchy/harmony, is to be categorized as friend, or foe, with the appropriate flight/fight responses in the ready.
If internalized the designation becomes one of toxin, or digestible (rehabilitated) nutrients, invigorating the whole with it addition - what can neither be expelled nor digested is designated cancerous, and ought to be cut away, or radiated to extinction before it grows.

Placing oneself in this outer space/time, in relation to the emergent unity, is a dangerous stance.
One will either be consumed, or expelled, if not killed and/or quarantined...but the primary danger is in the desire to detach and be other than, having to surmount ingrained psychosomatic dispositions.
Once accomplished the process condemns the individual to the consequences of independent evolution, which begin to occur immediately.
survival is not certain, but if maintained no reintegration back into the super-organism one has wilfully, or not, extricated one's self from is impossible.

[Dæmon]

What are moderns but clowns of laughter, comedic actors in tragic play; forever releasing anxiety in convulsions of oxygenating spasms, getting "high" off the hyperventilation.
Neuron clusters firing, like they would if intoxicated by some chemical accelerator, they revel in the sensation of lightheaded vertigo.
Their fears are an others; their cares are an others; their weakness is an others.
They cry with laughter at the sight of their own projections acting out a tragedy.
They are beside themselves, outside themselves, detached audience members appreciating a good character performance.

When the curtain falls they will get up off their chairs, de-stressed and feeling good, and return to their "real" lives where they will be the characters performing, and others watching and laughing at the tragedy of it all.

[Dæmon]

Unfinished Process

A boy who loses his father, before he has time to finish the natural rites of passage, will either idolize his dead father, or demonize him.
The father's reality will have been adsorbed into a positive or negative absolute tyrannizing the boy into manhood.
This is also true for those who find in a dead mentor a figurehead to idolize, or demonize.
The natural process of confrontation is missing, and closure is impossible.    
In such cases the male will dream of becoming the idealized father-figure, and will inevitably  fail to approach an unrealistic construct.
He will be tyrannized for his entire life, unable to break free from his own mental construct.
Mentor, father-figure, hero, will be divine, unblemished by any realism, or they will shadow the mind like a horrific monstrosity no living creature could defeat.
Mind will remain trapped in a noetic construct, unable to justify an overcoming, every additional bit of formation adding to the dead mentor's infamy.

Such a mind will be unable to mature, breaking free of this dominating presence; his greatest ambition to nullify his tormentor, or to replace him, becoming his own ideal.
In others he will see images of his absence, obsessing over those he feels embody his dead tormentor, and time after time he will be denied satisfaction, accusing them for his own failures.  

A teacher shows you, and then steps back to let you see for yourself.
If he intentionally stand in the way, then he is a teacher with no merit.
If the student is unable to look anywhere else but back to the teacher, unwilling to think or to speak without using his mentor's eyes and voice, then he is a student with no merit.      

[Dæmon]

Corollary
The definition of insanity being accepted as "to repeat the same activity and to expect a different outcome" must be appended with a further analysis of activity, with the difference in inherited potentials being an accepted fact.
The objective, whatever it may be, might prove to be evaluated differently because of differences in inherited traits.
The gifted one will evaluate the cost/benefit differently than the less gifted one, assuming that the objective is nearly equally desired by both.
Cost/Benefit, in relation to past/nature determining factors, are adjusted, affecting the desirability of the objective.
What for one is achieved with relative ease, changing the cost/benefit balance, will be for another a price too high to pay.    

A mind dedicated to objective understanding, will detach his personal cost/benefit potentials, form the evaluation.
The objective is now evaluated according to the outcome, in relation to world, without taking into account personal costs/benefits.
Egoism, expressed as hyperbole, will also no longer be a decisive factor.

The risk is going too far.
The idea(l) must relate to the living experience, because if it attains to something further all idea(l)s lose value.
Ideal only has meaning in relation to living organisms, confronted by and confronting, an unconscious cosmos.
The idea(l) is the symbol of the point of contact between the organic and inorganic, just as the nervous system is the nexus uniting the exoteric and the esoteric.
The symbol, the metaphor, mythology, is the nervous expression of this friction : mind/body combine and expunge themselves of accumulated heat.
Libido is the momentary storage/control, of this energy.
If it is kept subdued for too long, without release, it may burnout the nervous system, or damage the brain; if, on the other hand, it is released immediately and without caution, with no control, it risks the consequences of feedback.
Energy interacting with energies, (patterns) producing a cascading snowballing effect, returning back to the organism, multiplied, and from a different, usually unexpected, direction (karma).  

Psychology, other than being a form of social eugenics, attempts to direct this accumulated "heat" of nervous energy towards socially acceptable directions, before they damage the individual, or burst with destructive unpredictability.
Modern psychology has taken homosexuality off the list of psychological diseases, but, predictably, has added hundreds of new syndromes, directing human behaviour to adapt to Modern etiquette.
Failing to meet the criteria of a science, it freely indulges in mass manipulation, narcosis, and criminilization of all undesirable thoughts and behaviours, under the pretext that all must be protected from the viciousness of existence, and all life is desirable.        

[Dæmon]

When a "man'' aspires to be another man, or in the image of his own understanding of another, what he is admitting is a desire to break away from his own past, and to be, himself, other than.  
A theoretical transplantation of that apparent, onto a different determining nature - transfiguration of body as different mind, now an extension, a representation, of this other.
The idea is erotic the penetrated loses a sense of self, or wishes to become buried in other, or by other.
Bodies entwined, the mind loses itself in the copulation, wanting to remain other than self.  (S)He wants to give birth, through this contact, to a new and improved Self.
if the other is dead, he makes of himself the corporeal manifestation of this birth - copulation has transformed body, when the mind was seeded with this other's memetic sperm. 
A way of escaping the inescapable.
Ironically his understanding of the other, he passionately worships, wishing to become the representation of, is directed by this inescapable past.

The exchange is a product of a meme/gene divide.
The meme rejects the genes it finds itself representing, and adopts another, wearing them as an external skin, trying to cover flesh and blood.
New skins fall on him, like exotic fabrics only accentuating his discomfort. He returns to himself when he takes them off in private, unable to pull-off a real transformation, because they do not belong to him, having been purchased/learned, from external sources, rather than emerging from inside; imitated, perhaps successful, but not enough to convince self, as much as it may have convinced others.
He imitates attitude, repeating words appropriate to his performance.
They are exotic only to him, wearing underwear more of his kind.
if the fabric is thin, and the light falls upon it at a right angle, you can see the undergarments contradicting the suit.
 
The mind feels alienated from its own past/nature, repeating the teachings, the memetic codes, hoping it will result in a genetic effect.
The worshipped other is, for such a "man", the very representation of the meme he wishes to use as a template to transform self into something other, which he calls "more".
He studies this other, day and night he recites his words, because this is his only access to the spirit he wishes to transform into; he struggles religiously to become the incarnation of this dead other.
More than a disciple, the embodiment of the same spirit, reborn into a different form.
His genes, as codes introducing his past/nature, into the world, although halfheartedly acknowledged and accepted, remain detrimental to the project - they shine beneath the flimsy outer shell.
His discomfort forces him to seek guidance in sources that try to decrease the contradictions - he finds help in translators, reinterpreting the alien in a way he can relate to.
Abrhamic priests, under a new secular name, reinterpreting paganism for the modern masses, offering the same salvation, the same messages of purity and parity, driven by the same desire to hold dominion over men.    
Denial of genetic determinism might become part of the process of rebirth, or buried within a spiritual idealized Self, where all minds congregate, emerging as manifestation of the one "soul".
In the last case, he can claim to be a spiritual son of his dead mentor, placing his biological father on a lower level - something to deal with, and overcome, to attain his "true" heritage, as heir to a memetic lineage.
Any idea(l) detaching genes from memes, or the body from the mind, will be grasped, and used as a scalpel to amputate himself away from what limits his development, his transmutation.
Common ground with Moderns, is this desire to detach from a unappreciated, unworthy past/nature, to re-emerge as the rightful heir of the worthy.

The mind craves the effect, unable, and often unwilling to attain the cause.
Words act as sweet nectar on the tongue.
He returns to the hive engorged with liquid gold, carefully storing it in cells, for easy access, and does not notice the pollen stuck to its limbs.
For years he busily gathers the nectar, from flower to flower, and does his erotic duty, of which he is unaware of - from flower to flower pollinating, satisfying the sexual needs of plants.
The nectar has been used as a seductive trap, by plants converting earth, and sun, into their own plant-ideal, and the bee feeds on this conversion, vigorously, imagining that it is feeding on the sun itself, and digging into the earth's subterranean core, finding secret nutrition, buried in caves, accessible only by the gifted, the worthy...the chosen.    

The idea(l) of being one of the few chosen to suffer, for the divine, speaks of a pollinating duty, driven by a hunger to devour the effective sweetness, without suffering the rejected cause.

Biological inheritance cannot match the glory of fantasized memetic brilliance.
Spiritual father, supplants the inferior genetic one, and the spiritual son dreams of growing up to be just like his dad, who in death has been purified by time/space distances.
Through distance appearances blur, and what is left is an outline, with some subtle details, that can be filled in as the seeing eye wishes - an image, shimmering with the intervening time/space effects of light, (inter)acting with atmosphere: a chimera, an oasis in the desert heat, cool and clean, full of potential thirst-quenching, stomach-filling nutrients.
The lost in the desert declares himself lord of the oasis, at a distance - he lays a claim on its hazy delight.
Spirits are lifted, parched lips find some spittle to taste the coming waterfall, and the wanderer is invigorated by the thought.                

[Dæmon]

God is too powerful, an idea(l), to let go of.
He is birthed in the confusion caused by an emerging self-consciousness, being confused for an external voice emanating from an intimate, yet, alien consciousness.
When awareness overcomes this confusion, it expands the idea(l), seeing it in every unity, the conscious mind constructs, by simplifying/generalizing patterns into things.
For the still immature mind a rock, having been detached from the mountainside, is interpreted as a unity with an intent.
Multiple patterns imploded into a singular abstraction, and named using what is most intimate to the mind doing all the work, using symbols it adopts from its own becoming.
Then it stands back perceiving a similarity it has placed there, witnessing its own projected noumena, as if they were emanating from the unity itself, and feels a connection - calling it God.
More detailed perceptions deconstruct the deity. the rocks 'self", is discovered to be made up of many selves selves, until it all dissolves into mysticism, leaving behind a wonderful sense of belonging to something grand.
The simple usage of the word "self", its choice, instead of pattern, for instance, imbues the world with divinity.
A dead god is resurrected, anew, in tiny little pieces; small noetic constructs projected into phenomena as if they we always there waiting to be discovered.
A pebble, a stone, a mountain; a dew drop, a stream, a river, an ocean... each a small piece of God waiting for us to return to Him.
Each part loving itself, appreciating itself, wanting to preserve itself, seeking to include all in its embrace...and it all begins with a choice - word.
One word to bind them all, one word to become established in the mind as belonging there, as if it were always there, waiting to be spoken.    

[Dæmon]

Many forms of fear are, somewhat, irrational.
Nature evolved a failsafe predetermining irrationality.
Those that survived to carry on, did so because they adopted the practice of erring on the side of caution, and in a world antithetical to order this proved to be a decisive factor.
The irrational fear of darkness can be traced back to this practice of feeling anxious before the unknown, before the incalculable possible, as if there were an immanent and certain negative lurking.
In recent times this anxiety appears to be more irrational than ever, when you consider sheltering and fabricated predictability built into manmade systems – a remnant from primal environments the system attempts to eliminate, categorizing it a mental disorder, and giving it the name paranoia.
Its social undesirability can be linked to synergetic efficiency, and the nihilistic goal of constructing the perfect, non-descript, worker bee, able to get-along with any member of the hive.
Paranoia
Paranoia does have a dysfunctional meaning, unless you take it to the extreme.
It usually describes a state of mind governed by fear, beyond any natural discomfort before the unknown.
A simple look inflated into a conspiracy, exaggerating the normal state of assuming the worse, so as to prepare for it, which is part of all thinking.
Luckily organic order prevents the sharing of every thought that passes through a mind, and so anxiety concerning the other remains a secret, and anxiety is kept at an imperceptible minimum.    
Reading another’s intentions, is how the organism prepares for any contingency.
One might do so by listening to the other express his/her intentions, and accepting them as lacking guile, or one might do so by comparing the words one speaks with the acts one performs, gauging the other’s essence by juxtaposing the two.
This is not paranoia in the clinical sense, because it happens intuitively, in all social encounters, not having to become conscious. Though the accusation of “paranoia” is becoming a way of breaking down natural defensive mechanism, all privacy, protecting the organism from integration/assimilation – full disclosure is demanded as part of an “open” and benevolent Brave New World.
It is usually accompanied with a shaming tactic, like “Tear down your walls coward! What are you afraid of? Let the world in, let love in”… or words to that effect.
Truth is, in a world of altering possibilities, all are in play, and any mind not aware of this is either lying, or retarded.
The mind might forget, and be convinced by idealism, but the body, born in a state of natural selection, is never tricked by words. As an example, proving the wisdom of the body, one must only admire the male’s body’s increase in sperm production, during periods of separation from his mate. Though love is shared, and professed with diligent passion, the body revs up its libidinal production, unaffected by words and declarations, and the purity of honesty. It prepares for the worse, despite the brains convictions.
The body being, naturally cynical, in relation to human contrivances.    
Even a lowly animal has the wherewithal to approach a stranger with cautious anxiety. Perhaps not on the level of a human, because it lacks the mental faculties to project possibilities beyond the shallow present; also making it more inclined to “forgive and forget” without the benefit of a Christian upbringing.  
The detrimental effects of anxiety/fear become destructive only when they control the individual’s choices, above and beyond a reasonable doubt; when the level of anxiety cannot be justified.
The courageous stance of remaining indifferent, in theory, to all negative possibilities, so as to wholeheartedly give yourself to the “positive”, implying the strength to bear any likelihood, remains theoretical and very romantic, which is code for naïve, because there are always contingencies one cannot survive, and these always give themselves away, in subtle ways, before they make themselves obvious.
If we disregard pretentiousness, we can bring to mind Dostoevsky’s Idiot character, as a fitting example. A man-child, so pure in motive, that he could not imagine a vulgar alternative, until he faced it.  
Remaining aloof, in the face of the inevitable, is foolish, if it is possible at all, unless the risk is motivated by a different care than the primal baseness of personal survival.
This does not eliminate the awareness of the possibility before it makes itself evident, causing a stirring of anxiety in the bravest of hearts, who must acknowledge it even if they do not expose the flickering of doubt, and do not dare share it with those they wish to inspire respect in.
All forms of anxiety are a (re)action to an imminent, or possible negativity, and in all the possible, the negative probabilities are the most numerous of all.
The unknown may not be necessarily negative, but it is most probably so, given the nature of cosmos, in relation to life. Ignoring this is imprudent, if not hypocritical; sharing it, as a fleeting thought, is a risk all its own, given the human condition.
We can only imagine the horror of a world where every single thought is shared and accessible to all. Others would be even more intolerable than they already are.
Paranoia is an exaggerated response to such a fleeting thought; a surrender to fear.
Being suspicious, and/or skeptical, is how the mind expresses its caring, whether this care is for one’s own welfare, or for another’s, or, more idealistically, if it is for an abstraction, or a hope; an expression of love for that which is forever under threat.
Wisdom increases doubt, because it increases the awareness of the possible, but this doubt is not surrender to, nor is it ignored. It lingers, sometimes falling away, other times standing forth, demanding attention – never absent.
To act despite the absence of absolutes, one being that of absolute certainty, is to be alive; to act taking into consideration as many probabilities as possible, without being frozen by indecisiveness, is to be courageous; to accept any outcome, without guilt, and shame for having ignored those voices in the back of your mind warning you, is to be a man.

[Dæmon]

Biochemicals are methods of transmitting data, affecting cellular activity, on a uni-versal level.
Chemicals produced by the body (specialized cells), and those produced artificially, affect diastolic/systolic rates, by speeding them up or slowing them down, or they trigger some into activity, or make others dormant.
Systolic/diastolic raters determine the degree and speed of this effect.

In such chemical reactions we find evolution t work. Over the already evolved organization natural selection produces methods of adjusting how cells communicate, adapting them to environmental factors (conditioning).
Testosterone and estrogen are two such chemicals/hormones, triggering cellular activity, affecting their diastolic/systolic rates, and establishing cycles of activity and dormancy.

[Dæmon]

Cloning
The aforementioned doppelganger finds common ground with the typical Modern Nihilist.
His dissatisfaction with his own past/nature may not produce total denial/rejection but will attempt a form of memetic transplantation by reducing the power of genetic past/nature.
Having come across a mentor that inspires in him admiration, worship - a father figure he wishes were truly his own - the man-child seeks a way to become a mind-child of this idealized pater.
Memes are the best vehicle of transplantation - meme grafted over gene.
Words, the meme's code of transmission, are now used to produce a grafting, similar to that used by horticulturists to impose a foreign branch upon a root system.
If the graft is successful the "new" branches will be selected and the old ones pruned away, leaving only a root-system buried in the soil, to remind us of the old tree.
Memetic grafts, in the form of symbols (words, metaphors), carefully grafted into the mind, can act in a similar way.
A man-child, desperate to be more than what its inheritance allows, will find foreign source of grafting tiny branch-nodes, into its own already existent branch-system., slowly cutting the old ones away as the new ones grow, until it reinvents itself into this other tree it wanted to be like, or wished to be born as.
The past's immutability forcing it to take drastic measures.
Roots are not really denied, as with the Modern Nihilist, but they are permitted to slip out of consciousness, unseen in the soil. Emphasis is placed on the new grafts and how wonderfully they resemble that other tree that was so admired.            
Indubitably, some similarity had to be represent for the grafts to 'take' to the new root system, but the differences are what are lost from view.
The "new" tree can now claim to be the offspring of this other, despite its roots.

This is how farmer's learned to convert wild plants into 'tame' ones - meaning preferable in relation to their needs.
Finding a wild plant that has naturally manifested the traits the cultivator desired was the  most part; innovating a method of converting all wild plants, of the same kind, into a close approximation of the desirable one, was a matter of time, as it was a matter of time for the abstraction, the noumenon, to be used as a graft, inserted into the mind of another, to slowly convert him into the source, ideal"s, wannabe clone.
Original root system sending nutrients to branches belonging to another tree.
Meme growing out of a foreign genetic past/nature.
Therefore, although Modernity and Nihilism are rejected the method of dismissing past/nature, is adopted so as to prepare the tree/mind, for a new graft, a new father, a new idol.  

In the case of grafting memes into and over genes, is easier than it is to graft a foreign tree over an existing one, because genes are prone to reject the graft openly and immediately, whereas a foreign noetic graft into the brain which does not take to it and rejects it, can be hidden and this can produce indirect consequences.
One of the methods used to harmonize a meme that is rejected by the brain's genes is to morph it, alter the graft by imposing upon it traits that are not part of the graft's nature.
Idea(l)s are more malleable than the physical presence of a tree-graft, so the idea(l) can be reinterpreted, redefined, altered so that the graft adapts to the original, and is only different in appearance (image).
Words, metaphors as memetic codes can easily be adopted by a meme that is contrary to it, and the symptoms of this rejection, requiring a repression of the meme's autoimmune mechanisms, can be explained away, or hidden.

[Dæmon]

All of human cognition, including the formal, such as Geometric shapes, and Mathematics, can be reduced down to the simple binocular mammalian cognition.
Binary logic, and dualism is a product of this.

The organism's eyes become the base, and the convergence point the tip of a triangle.
The tip is the point in space/time, the object/objective.

This is the First Level of Cognition, corresponding to Psychology's  First Level of Intentionality:
colorConsciousness - Subjectivity of the First Order (Primitive Organism).
A Line


Then, from this, the organism imagines (projects) himself on that point, and perceives itself perceiving.
The organism has made of itself a noetic point in space time.
This is the Second Level of Cognition, corresponding to Psychology's Second Level of Intentionality: Self-Consciousness - Subjectivity of the Second Order (Higher Organisms).
A Triangle



Then, the organism begins to imagine itself imagining itself imagine, a third party triangulating upon a point in space/time.
The two triangles side by side form a square, or a rectangle.
This is the Third Level of Cognition, corresponding to Psychology's Third Level of Intentionality: Objectivity of the First Order (Advanced Organism).
A Square



Then, the organism begins to imagine itself imagining itself imagine a third party triangulating upon a point in space/time, where all, including its own triangulation are part of a whole.
It has projected itself outside all triangulations.
The organism can only perceive outwards but now it imagines itself outside itself, in the Third Cognitive Level, and also behind itself, and beside itself (around itself), creating a noetic circle encircling a noetic point encompassing all this triangles.
This is the Fourth Level of Cognition, corresponding to Psychology's Fourth Level of Intentionality: Subjectivity of the Third Order (Sophisticated Organism).
A Circle



Then, the organism begins to imagine itself imagining itself imagine a third party triangulating upon a point in space/time, where all, including its own triangulation are part of a whole, and it is above, looking down - it is twice removed.
It has projected itself outside all triangulations, and above this outside.
The organism can only perceive outwards but now it imagines itself outside itself, in the Third Cognitive Level, and also behind itself, and beside itself (around itself), creating a noetic circle encircling a noetic point encompassing all this triangles.
This is the Fifth Level of Cognition, corresponding to Psychology's Fifth Level of Intentionality: Objectivity of the First Order (Hyper-Cognitive Organism).
A Cube/Prism/Sphere

This is where the conception of a whole takes place.


Then, the organism begins to imagine itself imagining itself imagine a third party triangulating upon a point in space/time, where all, including its own triangulation are part of a whole, and it is above, looking down - it is twice removed - but it is also perceiving itself looking down - it is thrice removed.
It has projected itself outside all triangulations, and above, and outside, this outside.
The organism can only perceive outwards but now it imagines itself outside itself, in the Third Cognitive Level, and also behind itself, and beside itself (around itself), creating a noetic circle encircling a noetic point encompassing all this triangles, and it is detached from it all.
This is the Sixth Level of Cognition, corresponding to Psychology's Sixth Level of Intentionality: Objectivity of the Second Order (hyper-Sophisticated Organism).
Fluid Space/Time - Thinking outside the confines of Geometric Shapes

A primitive mind/psychology, not yet having developed beyond the Second Level of Cognition & Second Level of Intentionality (triangulation), cannot dislodge itself, its emotions, prejudices, its still youthful self-awareness from subjectivity.
It is closer to animal.
It projects this spotty, yet intimate, knowledge of self, into the alien other, beginning the process of advancing further towards objectivity.

Modern man, having advanced into the Third Level, and beyond, still suffers from the inexperience, and the anxiety this stimulates in him.
Nihilism stifles his courage to stand firm and move on; he is seduced by the idea of settling for the easy, the primitive, the seemingly certain - path-of-least-resistance.  
He stumbles back to the Second Level, that is easier, simpler, only daring to advance further, when there is nothing personal, intimate, at stake.
Titter-Tottering between the two, he compartmentalizes his "reasoning", and is conveniently selective with the standards of his "judgment": schizophrenic.
He becomes a child at play, calling this up-down on the seesaw, evidence of his "balance".


To comprehend the alien other, he uses his selective knowledge of self - projecting in this otherness his own best qualities, or the most neutral if he wishes to pretend objectivity.
He is immersed in a human, all too human world with him at its centre.
Stones, water, wind, mud, all alive with himself; all moving with intent, with meaning, with a purpose no different than his own.
He is in "agreement" with his own "reason", in conflict with it, in alliance with it.
He feels himself moving in all things, but thinks of them moving in him.
He hears his mind speaking to him from afar, from a tree, from a river, from the soil - Bicameral Mind, self-consciousness still awakening to consciousness, as if it were an-other.
Self-consciousness becoming conscience - whispering in the wind, code in the raindrops, the world is speaking to him in his own images, his own symbols, his own words.
His heart beating in all.  
He is a God, with God, and this is comforting.[/quote]


Geometry functions as symbolic connecting noumenon with phenomenon.
What is meant by "objectivity" is clarified, as a cognitive advancement detaching subjective emotions, sensations, interests, personal tastes, preferences,from the observable other.
The process involves self-awareness so to then, slowly, reduce the corruption of subjectivity, used as a standard, from the evaluation of objective other.  
A process where courage, integrity, ans self-knowledge are all essential factors - more so than processing speed, and sensual acuity.

[Dæmon]

Motive from Momentum
The idol worshipper aspires to be the idol worshiped.

[Dæmon]

Superior/Inferior

When one is dominated for a long time, the anxiety of repressing self to accommodate other, builds until the dominated wants to release the energy as pushing away or pulling towards.
If the dominating one is too formidable, or the dominated feels insecure before it, the energy may be released towards a different direction - towards someone less formidable, or outside the relationship.
In the case of a dead/absent dominant one, or an ideal that cannot be confronted physically, or challenged mentally, the dominated one's stress remains unresolved, and no redirection towards an alternate can completely release it, even if such an indirect release can become extreme, in time, due to the unresolved energies that cannot find satisfaction through this alternate.
A different method might arise in which the dominated one resolves the conflict by identifying with the dominating one, converting him into a version of self, or what (s)he recognizes as self.
When this dominating one shares genes with the dominated (parent, kinship), the relationship goes through a period of conflict and then a distancing, resulting in a return, to self through this other, determined by the development of self-identity.
If the dominating one shares little with the dominated, or a vague genetic past prevents a stronger identification, stress leads to an implosive capitulation, or an explosive breaking away.
If the other is an abstraction with no corporeal representation, such as an idea(l), as is often the case with Nihilistic idea(l)s, then the one dominated has to, in some way, identify with the abstraction, rejecting its own genetic identity, for the relationship to continue.
This otherness becomes an idea(l) the individual adopts as an identity, sacrificing his own, completely, or selectively.
The dominated one releases the stress in the form of relief, it renames enlightenment and/or liberation; a detachment from the ego that feels dominated so as to become assimilated by this idea(l) as an identifier – shame converted to pride, and insecurity converted to security.
The dominating other is redefined as self, or part of the greater Self, the dominated one is also a part of.
In the case where the idea(l) finds a corporeal representation in a dead/absent other, the abstraction identifies with a hypothetical individual, understood through his/her words, or the interpretations of them through these mediators/translators.
The word, then, becomes the only way the dominated one can confront what dominates him, going through the same process as if the absent/dead other/ideal were a kindred genetic entity – a parent, or someone belonging to the same bloodline, now abstracted into ideology/spirituality.
Unable to challenge, or confront, this entity, so as to release the stress, and achieve calmness, the dominated one purges the accumulated energies by identifying with the representation of the idea(l).
The identification can take the form of a continuance, an inheritance, as it would with a flesh and blood parent, or take the form of a spiritual transmutation where the dominated one literally embodies the essence of the dominating one's past/nature.
Nihilism serves as the eraser, cleaning away past/nature that inhibits this mental transmutation.
Words, detached from their role of connecting noumenon/phenomenon, acquire the magical power for the transformation to proceed to a level where the dominated one's identity no longer feels ashamed by the domination of this other, because other and self are now one and the same.
Even a slave can feel proud of being a different manifestation of the divine one, within which the master, that torments him, is also included – chosen to play the part of humble servant, with pride.
                

[Dæmon]

We rejoice, feeling ourselves merging with the cosmic mind, when our natural selfishness is transfigured into spiritual selflessness, with a simple redefinition of the word “self”, expanding mind, inflating it, to the point where it floats away from body.

[Dæmon]

How far we’ve progressed when emerging self-consciousness, once mistaken for the whispering of gods, has evolved into a visual practice of consistently mistaking our own constructs for pieces of the godly, and everywhere we look we witness ourselves, confusing our own mental practices for universal innate qualities; perceiving intentions and hidden motives, everywhere, because we've placed them there.
Bicameral advancement, from the acoustic to the visual.

[Dæmon]

An intentional confusion defines the Modern understanding of morality.
Causation, as manifest presence, described as determinism, purposefully mistakes the real for the ideal, the “is” for the “ought”, by extricating the unconscious, and the random, from the outcome.
For the Modern Nihilist speaking of determinism means one is discussing an inevitability, considered from the given (top<>down), as an absolute certainty, directed by some teleological imperative.
The typical Modern moron, assumes the moral, without understanding it, outside an inevitable ought, directed by a secret absolute power that should be rejected, as part of his “enlightenment”, and yet at the same time selectively embraced as part of his belonging to a holy unity; a uni-versal song, all choir members sing, or hum along to, when they have not learned the proper words.
Morality as a behavioural adaptation to otherness, resulting in particular forms of self-repression, to accommodate the presence of other, in close proximity (mirroring the metaphysical attrition of pattern relating to another pattern so as to establish a balance of attraction/repulsion, called harmony), so as to make heterosexual reproduction and cooperative survival strategies, based on similarities (genetic/memetic commonality) is never considered; the idea that this implies a form of self-repression, made easier in time (established as part of the naturally selected individual’s innate disposition – a compromise), and considered a self-evident truism that converts it into a moral idea(l), called “healthy” and/or “normal”, is never explored.
The spiritual nihilistic lines of welcomed bondage are never crossed.
The “ought” and the “is” merge into a subjective option, offering “liberty”, in the form of surrender. The convict breaks out only to freely return back to his cell.  
Have humans always been this dumbed-down by their own cowardice?
Has the majority always been so mentally stunted?
It would appear so, because no matter how often they are exposed to an alternative explanation, which they find terrifying, they always return to their original confusion, repeating the same ignorant contradictions, debating the same delusions, as if in the paradox they touch the mind of the divine.
They seek justifications for their capitulation, either due to mental feebleness or absence of spiritual endurance.
In every discussion with these pitiful creatures the determined present/presence, manifesting as appearance, called reality, is understood as a desirable, subjectively decided, idealism, and the unknowability of past/nature, due, not only to complexity of pattern (inter)actions, but also due to the participation of randomness in the outcome, is interested as a mystifying hidden purpose, an underlying meaning they must have faith in, because everything “is for the best”.
Nobility translated into humility.
Caught in a fix, of their own making, not able to reject causality, without giving-up divine intervention, and unwilling to give-into causality, without losing their freedom from past/nature, the horrible alternative of “chaos” denied relevance, for this would bring the edifice down, they shift between the binary poles of Nihilism… either/or. Their self-induced, and not always, confusion a way of evading a conclusion that would shatter the Nihilistic dualism they prefer being in. They are convinced they are thinking when they consider the merits of the opposite Nihilistic pole, inevitably returning to the original – womb.
Causality must be made a tautology with morality, otherwise the cracks in the nil ovum is cracked and the terrible world outside the shell peeks through the white/black.
What “is” and what “ought to be” returned to the subjective comfort of personal choice, even if one decided by a vote, and submitted to half-heartedly – such is the sacrifice of the Modern, for the “better good”.  

[Dæmon]

Temptation too great to Ignore

The wounded-wing employed by a bird to outwit a predator, as clever as a fox, is evidence of a innate trigger overwhelming the reasoning cortex.

[Dæmon]

Reading the two poles of nihilism debate the meaning of ubermench is excruciating to read.
one is pulling his hair, as he is gripping his gut.

One wishes to perceive the metaphor as the sovereign, the will that imposes whatever reality it deems beneficial to itself, the other wishes to repudiate this, by leveling all to meaninglessness, only overcome with a shared, compromise.

Watching cripples wrestle is both funny and gut wrenching pitiful.
One cannot decide between crying and laughing.
The outcome is a combination of the two.
 

[Dæmon]

Desperation, for the average Modern idiot, goes so fr as to try to absolve himself of all past, all nature, all nurturing that preceded the appearance, the presence, what it experiences as the event.
Such a creature of illness desperately attempts to incorporate all past/nature as a product of the here and now.
It wants to implode all existence into a immediate event.

[Dæmon]

Those who do not believe in the words they speak, need others to hear them, proving they were spoken, and in their speaking they need another to believe them, because they cannot.

[Dæmon]

How we go out of our way to forgive a loved one - a parent, a child, an icon, a god.
How willing to look again, to listen more intently, wanting to find some detail that we can manipulate into forgiveness.
How unwilling we are to consider the possibility that we may have been mistaken, our judgment flawed, our reasoning corrupt.

Our invested passion unable to break free, doubles-down, increasing our love, explaining our foolishness with a vague factor nobody has yet considered.
We fall into certain destruction to save our ego.
This is our faith.    

[Dæmon]

An only-child's psychology, especially an only son, is different from one that has siblings, particularly married with children.
There's less pressure, and so less guilt associated with remaining on the periphery of human social activities, memetic and genetic.

Child-less women have less pressure, because their circumstances are a matter of personal choice, but a boy has the added shame of not being able to pass on the bloodline, not because of choice, but because of being judged unworthy.
He becomes his entire bloodlines net worth, and though not affected personally he carries this as a testament of a choice denied.

Such males usually compensate by seeking to become a memetic fertilizer, a priest, or a guru, fertilizing minds because fertilizing wombs is either not an option, or too costly for them to consider.  
An only son is both first born and last born - burdened and pampered.  

[Dæmon]

You can see the wonder in the men-child's eyes.
He is truly having fun playing "pretend" with his friends.

There's no doubting the authenticity of the emotion.
The same innocence of one who is living in his own private world, and has managed to involve other playmates into his game.
Postponed costs, for an immediate benefit.
As benefit increases minus the costs, the costs do not erase - there is no bankruptcy clause, with some minor inconveniences when it comes to existence.

You pay the costs in increments (advisable) or in lump sums.
There is no institutional safety net.

You do drugs, the immediate benefits will be paid; you live beyond your means, the benefits enjoyed now will be paid later; you live in delusion, detached from reality, in a pleasing subjective, private magical world, you haven't escaped, you've, perhaps, momentarily postponed the "bill" to be paid.  

If you honestly consider the issue, what we have here is a life paid for continuously.
All of us are born in the "black", owing every drink we will ever have, every house we will ever buy or rent, every morsel of food we ingest, every breathe we inhale, every cloth we use to protect ourselves from the elements.
You owe it, whether it be via some institutionalized system controlling resources, or in nature where the costs/benefits are never guaranteed, or are never as predictable.
To be "rich" means you are, momentarily, in the "red", but for how long when time goes on?
You may have extended the choices of your benefits, accentuated them, but you've not rid yourself of the costs.  

[Dæmon]

Those who have never been fathers can never fully understand the magnitude of love in the "cruelty" of a father, wanting to prepare his child for the world.

A love so magnanimous that it suffers the pain of his child, and endures its resentment.  

[Dæmon]

What is implied in Feminization of Mankind, is that women, appearance reflecting psychology, are stunted in their mental and physical development, or their specialization is a regression to facilitate the demands imposed upon them.

Round, soft, child-like features, playful, gullible, intuitive, a child-like psyche, temper tantrums, a need for support, for constant reaffirmation, a natural submission to authority, social behavior, a need for playmates, for a supporting network, a safety-net.

What does feminization produce but emasculated males, in other words infantile males, child-like, immature - only for them it isn't part of their specialized sexual role, but a result of sheltering, and due to the imposition of an external will (parent) which stunts natural development, and keeps them in perpetual adolescence.
Spoiled brats.
I call them men-children.
They appear like they are male, because genes are to past/nature, manifested as appearance/presence, but their mind, their psychology is stunted - nurturing has suppressed the attainment of their full intellectual/psychological potential.
They are happy contributors to their own sheltering. (path-of-least-resistance)
They are closer to the feminine, as male prepubescent children are.

Surrogate females, under the dominance, authority of the institution - church, state, or an ideal.
females submit to social rules, to culture, easily, not requiring an understanding of it - they do so instinctively, and are also quick to change their loyalties when hierarchies shift,. and one meme becomes subordinated, assimilated by another.
The usual symptoms are present, accompanied by an obsession with some masculine figure, God, Nietzsche, Pagan symbols...etc.
An infantile mystification by toys, or words....a surrender to fantasy, fairy-tales the extraordinary...anything that alters reality and lets imagination flow free.

The masculine figure, institutional representative, some historical icon, it can be anything, is a stand-in for the parent, or the dominant male.
Such men-children compete over which one of them will be the dominant male's preferred female, alpha female.
Breaking out of this prolonged state of infancy may express an adolescent rebelliousness against the masculine icon, an obvious but hidden imitation of the icon that dominates, a need to kill the father figure, to destroy the icon and replace it.
Natural rites of passage are directed toward this dominant masculine figure, this icon/representation.

If it is an abstraction, an institution represented by different people over time, a manchild is committed to an ambition to be that representative, and this is followed by a desire to become the institution - man-child dreams of being, himself, an institution: grand ambitions for an emerging adolescent psyche.
Coming of age.

Children lie, lacking integrity and wanting to avoid accountability.
Men-Children are suck creatures.
They lie, shamelessly, sometimes they convince themselves with their own lies.
They constantly evade accountability- finding excuses, wanting to unburden themselves of the consequences of their own mistakes.  

[Dæmon]

Stress burns away stored fat.
Fear focuses the mind, triviality falling by the wayside.
War returns woman from her hedonistic exploits, her careless extravagances, back to her center, her womb.
There she finds her past, and her perfect mate.  

[Dæmon]

Hedonism is the final destination of every base mind.
With nothing else to idealize it idealizes the sensation of fulfilment.
It idealizes idealism.  
With no end, the means becomes the end.

It reverts to a primal level, and calls this an epiphany, using all kinds of jargon to hide this fact.  

[Dæmon]

New Shield
Defeated warriors take away from the fight, if they survive it, scars, and bruises, but also experience.
They then want a memento of their survival, and they craft armor and shield copying those the victor wore.

He returns to the battlefield wearing them, hoping he also absorbed the victor's spirit, symbolized by his new image.

[Dæmon]

Mothers and Daughters
Christianity had to distance itself from Judaism. It distinguished itself by claiming to be different.
Marxism had to distance itself from Christianity. It distinguished itself by claiming to be different.

Will not a newborn daughter distance herself from her mother, if she hopes to be independent of the past, and make a name for herself?

[Dæmon]

It's difficult to take a Modern seriously, when he thinks someone is trying to tell him what he ought to do.

Truth is, nobody is trying to make him do or not do anything, all I, we, are saying is that we ought not stand in the way of the consequences of his choices, judgments.
He ought to do anything he chooses, if we are not expected to pay on his behalf.

Costs/Benefits ought to be entirely upon him.
Otherwise, he becomes an imbecile who thinks his choices have minimal costs, and that all judgments are equal.

[Dæmon]

Deluded Resentment of a born Victim
A victim wants to victimize all, so that his own pain and suffering, and his own weakness and shame, will no longer be so obvious.

He studies his master to imitate what he submitted to.
He studies the free-spirit to become a more masterly master - combining his own master's powers, the one he could not resist, and he integrates it with the spirit of those that got away from what he submitted to, the one who did resist, desperate to become a master over all, including those his own master could not dominate.  

[Dæmon]

A cuckold externalizes his internal shame - he avenges himself against the ones that hurt him.
He repeats his shame, unburdening himself from its weight.
He casts another, his mate, in the role of his feminized spirit, and watches himself being used sexually by a stranger - usually some brute with low intelligence.


A feminized weakling must return to the one he surrendered to, was emasculated by, hoping to avenge himself against all those who, unlike him, never bowed down, were never seduced, or mind-raped.
In the place of the one who seduced and abused him he will place a representation of the one who made him aware of his weakness, of his secret shame, and how he enjoyed the surrender, wanting to use this surrogate to accentuate the power of seduction, so that those who never surrendered will finally fall to their knees, and when this happens he will finally be free of his own shame.    

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